Fixation

Fixation
Can’t stop the thoughts
Shouldn’t think this way
Something might happen
Can’t hurt others this way
I can’t stop the thoughts
I am afraid
I don’t want it to happen
I do want it to happen
I shouldn’t do it
I shouldn’t hurt others this way
It’s just so hard
What’s one little slit?
No.
I can’t.
I could get addicted.
I can’t become dependent on it.
I help my friends to avoid it.
Why should they have to listen if I do the same?
Hell.
Trapped.
Fixated.